Sign up for our COVID-19 newsletter to stay up-to-date on the latest coronavirus news throughout New York By Nikki SternOn Thursday, Sept. 20, 2001, I took Shari with me to Pier 94, the assistance center set up for survivors of the World Trade Center attack. It was Yom Kippur. I was struck by the irony of considering atonement while processing colossal grief. I was there as a widow and as an observer of history, or so I told myself. I’d already figured out I could maybe cope by acting in part as a detached chronicler of events as they unfolded. Exhausted, drained and isolated in central New Jersey, I hadn’t fully filtered my private loss through the vastness of this public event. Spending 11 hours navigating the bureaucracy of disaster and recovery brought home not only the scale of the devastation but also the mind-boggling support effort underway in New York.Two hundred lawyers, some barely out of school, were spread across dozens of card tables to help victims’ families file affidavits, a tutorial in the challenges of declaring someone dead whose corpse has not been recovered. My assigned lawyer and I worked with a set of assumptions based on our car found abandoned at the train station, an established routine (he had planned to get to his office around 8:20) and the devastation wrought by a plane flying and exploding at the floor where his office was located). “Presumed Dead” was what we went with.That brought the ever-present question to the fore: What really had happened? I sought precise information from a Navy pilot, a NYC detective, and an FBI analyst. How much damage can a fully fueled 747 do when it smashes, nose first, into the side of a glass building? How quickly? What variables might affect the outcome? No, I don’t know where he was sitting or whether he was sitting or whether he was at his desk or in the men’s room. No, we didn’t talk that morning.My “investigation” gave me something to do. I was establishing the facts of Jim’s death. I decided it must have happened nearly instantly. I just couldn’t decide whether getting a call from him one more time made me lucky or unlucky. Didn’t really matter.We signed up for an excursion to the site. Looking back, I wonder that family members had insisted on visiting the devastated and potentially dangerous site and officials had agreed to arrange those visits. We were all trying to make sense of something that made no sense. And no one was saying no to the grieving survivors. Logistics were still in flux and the boats were delayed. As the minutes passed, my already short fuse ran out. I kicked a folding chair across the room, which skittered and collapsed with a bam! Heads swiveled. People actually gasped. I was rushed by aid workers speaking English and Spanish (“Cálmese,” or cool down, they said), but Shari—a friend and coworker—got to me first. “Grief is for here, anger is for home,” she whispered.At last we were led through a double line of soldiers in front of boxes that might have contained computers—or guns. Once aboard, police chaplains, counselors and grief dogs surrounded us. Steely-eyed men dressed in black and carrying fearsome-looking firearms faced out over the Hudson. The boat passed the quintessentially New York bluffs that make the Hudson River landscape so unique. If I squinted, I could just make out machine guns perched at the summit. Helicopters hovered protectively overhead. Motorboats circled our ferry, each containing grim-looking armed soldiers. A lovely day for a weapons-heavy water processional.We rounded the tip of the island of Manhattan and came upon a sight both alien and awful. Sunlight glinted off the smoldering ruins of what had been the World Trade Center. Smoke and ash and God knows what else colored the sky a sickly yellow.Welcome to Hell. Off the boat and onto a specially built platform, I expected to fall weeping to the ground, but detached and observant me was in charge. While family members wept softly behind me, clutching flowers and teddy bears, I spoke conversationally with the cleanup crews, asking smart questions about schedules and workloads, and machinery and debris. No one mentioned what that debris might have included. I gave myself time to look around. The terrible beauty of the site appeared as some terrifying piece of public art. I turned in a circle, trying to superimpose the before onto this ungodly after. Was this where I’d get off the subway to meet Jim? Was that where he worked? I knew he had been here, just as I knew he wasn’t here now. But where was he? In the charred park behind what had been the World Financial Center, family members laid down their wreaths and stuffed animals. I separated from the group, walked up the few steps that remained, and whispered, “You’re not here” and kicked at the stone. I repeated, sotto voce “You’re not here!” and kicked at the stone steps until I tore my shoe. A gentle hand restrained me. A kind and worried face appeared. Would I like to get back on the boat now? Turning around, I saw the other passengers already lined up to board, staring at me with a mix of pity and fear. The clinical me had failed to remember: Grief is for here; anger is for home.James Potorti’s name is forever etched into the National September 9/11 Memorial & Museum at the site of the fallen World Trade Center in Lower Manhattan. (Photo courtesy of Lea Lane)Nikki Stern is an author whose latest book is Hope in Small Doses. She is the former executive director of nonprofit Families of September 11. Her husband James Potorti was killed at the World Trade Center on 9/11/01. The couple lived on Long Island in the early ’90s; James “adored” Long Island, says Stern.
Yggdrasil Gaming selects SBC Summit to showcase latest innovations February 17, 2020 Share Submit SBC Digital Summit: A crash course in adaptability and resilience April 27, 2020 Related Articles Fredrik Elmqvist, YggdrasilFredrik Elmqvist is the CEO for Yggdrasil Gaming, a provider of online and mobile casino games for some of Europe’s leading online gambling operators.Just two weeks before ICE 2017, we caught up with him to find out about Yggdrasil’s preparation for the showpiece event in February (7-9), what they are looking forward to seeing at the London ExCeL and where to find them across the three days.How do you prepare for ICE?FE: It takes a massive team effort involving the whole of our organisation. ICE is THE event for us, and we put in extra effort to make sure we make a splash each year. For us it is the best meeting and networking place in Europe, and allows us to catch-up with customers as well as new operators and potential partners. This is certainly the case for those operating in markets we are planning to enter during the year, such as Italy.What is Yggdrasil planning to showcase at ICE 2017? FE: We have a major launch lined up, one we believe will revolutionise the experience of playing online slots. Full details remain in a file marked “top secret” until ICE kicks off, but I can tell you that it is an industry-first technology innovation that we are in the process of patenting.We have built a reputation for developing and launching industry-firsts such as our in-game promotional tool for social media, BRAG, and our latest product takes things to the next level. Make sure to stop by our stand (N3-140) to see it break cover for the first time.What are you looking forward to at ICE 2017?FE: To seeing people’s faces when they enter the Yggdrasil Temple. This year we have gone all-out with our stand. It is spread over two floors and has been designed around a temple theme to coincide with the launch of our latest slots game, which we will unveil during the show.I have seen the designs for the stand on the computer and it looks mind-blowing, so I can’t wait to see what it looks like in real life. Secretly there is a lot of competition between exhibitors over who has the best stand, and this year I think we are a hot contender to take home the top prize!Where will you usually be at the ICE conference?FE: At the Yggdrasil Temple, stand N3-140. I will be there for all three days, and look forward to chatting to friends old and new.What is your favourite ICE memory?FE: I don’t have a favourite memory as such, but each year I am amazed by how much Yggdrasil Gaming grows. Year-on-year, our stand has become more impressive, our game portfolio larger, and our features and tools more innovative.ICE acts as a good benchmark; each year you can look back at what you have achieved and how far you have come, and then look ahead to what is in your product pipeline and how you will drive the business forwards over the coming 12 months.What’s your company’s typical post-ICE activity?FE: Straight to the bar. Just kidding, this year we are preparing something special. Again, I can’t give you too much detail but it is based around how players celebrate big wins, and will serve as inspiration for a future slot.We are taking customer involvement in game production one step further and will encourage them to interact with us in the Yggdrasilian way. Intrigued? You’ll just have to stay tuned over the coming weeks, or pop by the Yggdrasil Temple to find out more. DATA.BET to make esports data debut in $250,000 ICE tournament January 15, 2020 Share StumbleUpon read more
Sheffield Wednesday v Arsenal is live on talkSPORT at 7.45pm on Tuesday 27 October.Arsenal take on Sheffield Wednesday in the League Cup on Tuesday night as they look to progress to the next round.The Gunners used to use the competition to blood youngsters but in recent seasons, with silverware needed, they have played more senior stars.Now, though, with consecutive FA Cups won and rivals Tottenham dispatched in the previous round, Arsene Wenger may decided to rotate his team and use some younger bodies.But which starlets can the Frenchman turn to as they take on the Championship side? talkSPORT takes a look.Click the right arrow above to see which Arsenal starlets could face Sheffield Wednesday… 5 1. Glen Kamara – A Finnish Under-21 international, Kamara, who the Gunners signed from Southend United in 2012, is another defensive midfielder who could be handed some minutes by Arsene Wenger against Sheffield Wednesday. Able to shield his defence and kick-start attacks, Kamara was named on the bench for their Champions League group stage clash with Galatasaray last year. 3. Alex Iwobi – The youngster has been on the fringes of the first-team since pre-season having impressed in the Gunners friendly matches over the summer. Capable of playing on the wing or as a forward, he scored both goals in Arsenals 2-0 UEFA Youth League victory over Bayern Munich and signed a new deal at the Emirates earlier this month. He could get a chance to strut his stuff against the Owls. 5 2. Ben Sheaf – Described as technically gifted by Arsenals own website, the ex-West Ham youngster is highly-rated at the Emirates. He was a regular for the Gunners Under-18s last year but also appeared for the Under-19s in the UEFA Youth League. Hes known for some defence splitting passes and an eye for goal. 5 4. Krystian Bielik – The Polish starlet moved to the Emirates earlier this year from Legia Warsaw and, although signed as a defensive midfielder, has spent much of his time playing at centre-back for the Gunners as he adapts to football in England. He could be given a run out by Arsene Wenger in his favoured midfield role, especially with Mikel Arteta ruled out. 5. Matt Macey – One of a number of Arsenal youngsters who joined the senior side for training ahead of the Sheffield Wednesday, Macey wont start but is likely to take a spot on the bench. Signed from Bristol Rovers in 2013, hes now 21 and last season had a short loan spell with Accrington Stanley. 5 5 read more